Sigh, I do not complain about adulthood a lot. Yet I have to admit, retraining yourself takes a lot of work. People say you cannot teach an old dog new tricks, well you can, it is just the effort that goes into doing that is a lot.
This is how it feels like when you have to retrain yourself and let go of old behaviours, I used to be a hothead before, and now I have been working on that for years, I am calmer now, reading a lot on how to understand and navigate all my emotions. For the most part, apart from happiness and anger, I repressed most of my emotions since dealing with them is a herculean task.
I believe I am better at processing these things than I was 4-5yrs ago, just that it still has not gotten any easier. There are still a bunch of things I need to learn though, like discipline and minimizing distractions. (Lol, I was designing a data table and then stopped to write this piece, in my defence if I do not do it right now, I may never get around to writing it).
Unlearning old habits, patterns and thought processes is super hard, but if you are consistent it is worth it in the end. Some of the things I have unlearnt has greatly increased the overall quality of my friendships with people.
Oh well, back to Figma.