I am usually not this open when I feel hurt. I am trying this out in the healthiest way possible, figured keeping it repressed would not be the best approach.
First of all, happy new year guys, I know I have not written all year, I plan to fix that going forward, hey it even looks like substack updated their UI. Lol.
On my writing hiatus, I started a podcast, Conversations with Mudia Imasuen. It has really fun episodes I think you’d love. Check it out here.
I recently had something I gave my all to come to an end, while I think it is for the best. It turns out I cannot Ignore how I feel, (believe me I tried), I have been angry, mostly at myself and in every other direction. My energy levels have been off also. On the bright side, therapy seems to be helping me process how I feel. I plan to do a lot more of it for other areas of my life.
I have slowly started calming down, and it got me thinking, why do we fear endings so much even when they might be good for us or maybe good in general? Everything comes to an end, and if they do not come to an end, you cannot have space for a new beginning.
Take Eternals (the movie) for example, while I am biased towards wanting humans to stay alive, the logic of the main Celestial holds up. Planets with life need to come to an end to create new celestials who in turn create conditions that enable billions/trillions of lives to thrive in the universe, which is a good thing…ish?. Lol, spoiler alert, the movie ended up with the humans stopping the emergence of a new Celestial. BTW I know this was not good for humans in the MCU.
I have learnt a lot from it all, I have seen how important communication is to me and how it influences how I act/react. I have learnt the things I would never compromise on and finally, I respect myself a lot more now, which would always lead to me putting my peace first.
To new beginnings and writing more. 🍻
P.S. Happy new month guys, welcome to the second half of the year. Let us see if we can make it without destroying the planet eyh?